Where one's focus is that is where one puts one's energies!
I have found it very interesting over the last few days as to what people find important and how when they get really fixed on something they expect everyone else to be too and can get quite irate when people are not on the same campaign as they are.
Though they can be forgiving if the person is dedicated totally to another campaign but woe betide one not to fixated on some sort of campaign.
The ones I have seen of late, and they are all wonderful people and I do wish I could do it, are those home educators who have really put all their energies into making sure their MPs know about this very controlling report by Mr Badman - yes this is really his name - which sets out to put state control on home education, and which the government it trying to slide through hiding under another bill that looks ok. And then there are those great people who are cycling, catching trains, etc to London for 5th of Dec and even cycling or using public transport to get to Copenhagen for 13th December to promote that total deep need for something to change in the way we are destroying our planet. Of other people I know who are going all out to make Human Traffiking in the news, raising money by driving in a Land Rover to somewhere in deepest Africa, and producing information to make this a know thing, very similar to William Wilberforce and stopping slavery 200 years ago.
As you can see I see these causes and many others as very amazing, commendable, need someone to do something about.
But I like many people in this county see all these things as important and in need of change. How are we to know where to put our energies in prayer and in action?
I had a great time at a 24/7 Prayer regional networking day but all that did was give me even more things I would love to be doing if only...........
whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable - think about such things Philippians 4:8
Saturday, 28 November 2009
Thursday, 26 November 2009
Justice part 2
I think what I found so hard about the program "Spooks" and I do wonder how true to life it is - is that our taxes are being used, our government agency MI6 and the American equivalent, are being used to protect these rich and powerful people from people who are wanting to being their crimes to the public attention. And that those who want to show people some of the horrors of what goes on to get what we think we want are seen as subversive, violent radicals.
Interesting how radicals is so often used as a derogatory term for someone not a compliment. I am sure as Christians we are meant to be the most radical of radicals. I am sure Jesus was. Do you remember the poster of Jesus like Che Guevara? Talk about causing controversy!!!
I want to be a Jesus radical. Not someone who goes around killing those who do wrong to our fellow humans and to our planet, but exposing them and just showing what does go on so we can get the comforts we have. And also what goes on for other Christians who really do know what enduring suffering for Christ means.
I'll get there some how. Just waiting to see which door He will open for me
Interesting how radicals is so often used as a derogatory term for someone not a compliment. I am sure as Christians we are meant to be the most radical of radicals. I am sure Jesus was. Do you remember the poster of Jesus like Che Guevara? Talk about causing controversy!!!
I want to be a Jesus radical. Not someone who goes around killing those who do wrong to our fellow humans and to our planet, but exposing them and just showing what does go on so we can get the comforts we have. And also what goes on for other Christians who really do know what enduring suffering for Christ means.
I'll get there some how. Just waiting to see which door He will open for me
Tuesday, 24 November 2009
Justice
Here are some thoughts I had from last Sunday's meeting. We were at our old congregation as Tabi is still on the production team rota. I am not sure if these thoughts are related to anything that was said or just where God has me at the mo.
Jesus call is to justice to all. A part of the ancient ways is to protect the widows and orphans and the poor and needy. How can I do that? When Jesus comes back to will He find His people wanting because we thought more of cheap i-pods, clothes, food, etc, of having enough, rather than really looking and caring for those who don't have enough?
I watched "Spooks" on Saturday night on iplayer and on it the 8 most powerful people in the world who control the majority of the world's wealth get kidnapped and tried. A lot of what they showed was true of what goes on with multinationals, about villages being destroyed due to treatments works being put upstream of their water supply so we can get cheaper goods; wars being encouraged to keep the price of certain minerals down. And the guy who was funding this was a rich Russian guy who was actually saying that the status quo needed to change even though the way things were was easier for him to make money.
I could so understand where he was coming from and where the protester guy had got to. I know being judge, jury and executioner is wrong but there is such a mass of awful things out there and great organizations too where does one start?
So where should one start on the road to justice? How do we know what to buy? What to do? Where we should go?
It seems that there are at times these 2 extremes of either taking the law into one's own hands or of sitting back and just pretending it isn't going on. I think for me with this whole major change of no longer being needed so totally at home that I want to make sure this phase of my life is more impacting on the world than the phase before I had children. Oh how I wasted that bit.
I can't go and change the past but I can change the future but I want to change other people's futures as well as my own
Jesus call is to justice to all. A part of the ancient ways is to protect the widows and orphans and the poor and needy. How can I do that? When Jesus comes back to will He find His people wanting because we thought more of cheap i-pods, clothes, food, etc, of having enough, rather than really looking and caring for those who don't have enough?
I watched "Spooks" on Saturday night on iplayer and on it the 8 most powerful people in the world who control the majority of the world's wealth get kidnapped and tried. A lot of what they showed was true of what goes on with multinationals, about villages being destroyed due to treatments works being put upstream of their water supply so we can get cheaper goods; wars being encouraged to keep the price of certain minerals down. And the guy who was funding this was a rich Russian guy who was actually saying that the status quo needed to change even though the way things were was easier for him to make money.
I could so understand where he was coming from and where the protester guy had got to. I know being judge, jury and executioner is wrong but there is such a mass of awful things out there and great organizations too where does one start?
So where should one start on the road to justice? How do we know what to buy? What to do? Where we should go?
It seems that there are at times these 2 extremes of either taking the law into one's own hands or of sitting back and just pretending it isn't going on. I think for me with this whole major change of no longer being needed so totally at home that I want to make sure this phase of my life is more impacting on the world than the phase before I had children. Oh how I wasted that bit.
I can't go and change the past but I can change the future but I want to change other people's futures as well as my own
Friday, 20 November 2009
Celebration
This quote really struck me this morning in Celebration of Discipline by Richard Foster from Harvey Cox "modern man has been pressed so hard towards useful work and rational calculation he has all but forgotten the joy of ecstatic celebration....."
Foster then goes on to say how as Christians we justify ourselves into thinking we have joy because we got to a church service once or twice a week, do some bouncing and dancing and singing to worship songs and think we have ticked the joy box.
I remember reading about a prominent Jew who said he couldn't become a Christian because they always looks so dour whereas Jews will use any excuse to have a party. Just look at the history of some of their festivals. We can even turn Easter and Christmas into a bit of an embarrassing event that we don't quite know what to do with and then invite people along to.
Foster does not discount that we can have hard lives, that there are struggle and things we do have to deal with and that we must be careful not to get into false celebration and ignore the trials of life. But I look so often at the things we do have, the stuff that does on in our lives and I think that we are so blessed, so spoilt in this western world and yet I look around and see such miserable faces. My own included at times.
I really do want to take on board that "the joy of the Lord is my strength", that Jesus did die for me no matter what Robbie Williams says at the end of Bodies, and that because He died for me not only do I have an amazing eternal life to look forward to but I also have a life on this earth with the King of Kings to walk through it with me.
Oh Lord help me to get my head round this!
Foster then goes on to say how as Christians we justify ourselves into thinking we have joy because we got to a church service once or twice a week, do some bouncing and dancing and singing to worship songs and think we have ticked the joy box.
I remember reading about a prominent Jew who said he couldn't become a Christian because they always looks so dour whereas Jews will use any excuse to have a party. Just look at the history of some of their festivals. We can even turn Easter and Christmas into a bit of an embarrassing event that we don't quite know what to do with and then invite people along to.
Foster does not discount that we can have hard lives, that there are struggle and things we do have to deal with and that we must be careful not to get into false celebration and ignore the trials of life. But I look so often at the things we do have, the stuff that does on in our lives and I think that we are so blessed, so spoilt in this western world and yet I look around and see such miserable faces. My own included at times.
I really do want to take on board that "the joy of the Lord is my strength", that Jesus did die for me no matter what Robbie Williams says at the end of Bodies, and that because He died for me not only do I have an amazing eternal life to look forward to but I also have a life on this earth with the King of Kings to walk through it with me.
Oh Lord help me to get my head round this!
Tuesday, 17 November 2009
Banks!!!
Not so sure if this one is going to be too positive!
We are trying to do teenage budgeting, an interesting experience - as in teaching our teens to budget not budgeting our teens which could be interesting. Must think on that some more :)
We are not being helped greatly by the organisation they must keep all their wages in - namely the bank. Ok so it is the fault of the individual to overdraw but surely safeguards must be in place to help a new user of the bank. But no. Bank charges can be gathered up to about £150 a month, a statement is given at the beginning of the next month to let on about the said bank charges, but then the charges do not come out til the following month. So say charges run up in Sept do not come out the bank till November. And for someone who is struggling to budget this then just leads to another month of being overdrawn and being charged from it.
You can see how the banks manage to get all their nice healthy bonuses.
I did wonder whilst praying about this whole economic crash being God punishing for the way we treat money but mainly those who got hurt were people who'd been allowed to take on too big a mortgage, people struggling anyway and those in the developing world.
I changed ages ago to Reliance Bank, a Christian bank, because of its ethics with money but now I am getting the teenagers to change too just because they will get looked after a people not just a meal ticket!
We are trying to do teenage budgeting, an interesting experience - as in teaching our teens to budget not budgeting our teens which could be interesting. Must think on that some more :)
We are not being helped greatly by the organisation they must keep all their wages in - namely the bank. Ok so it is the fault of the individual to overdraw but surely safeguards must be in place to help a new user of the bank. But no. Bank charges can be gathered up to about £150 a month, a statement is given at the beginning of the next month to let on about the said bank charges, but then the charges do not come out til the following month. So say charges run up in Sept do not come out the bank till November. And for someone who is struggling to budget this then just leads to another month of being overdrawn and being charged from it.
You can see how the banks manage to get all their nice healthy bonuses.
I did wonder whilst praying about this whole economic crash being God punishing for the way we treat money but mainly those who got hurt were people who'd been allowed to take on too big a mortgage, people struggling anyway and those in the developing world.
I changed ages ago to Reliance Bank, a Christian bank, because of its ethics with money but now I am getting the teenagers to change too just because they will get looked after a people not just a meal ticket!
Monday, 9 November 2009
No Dig Gardening
My friend has got me in on a newish thing from her organic market gardening boss - its called No Dig Gardening, so something like that. That is the principle anyway.
So on Weds I get a big pile of cow manure which I have to put on the designated space and then cover it with cardboard. At some point I think i also need to put on some compost from the recycling centre and again cover with cardboard and put stones on said cardboard to hold it down. Then by the spring I can start planting. It turns out this method means that the weeds don't come through because actually weeds, or at least the seeds of weeds, are encouraged to grow by the whole process of digging. Occasional ones do pop up but one just pulls them out. And also this method can be planted continuously for a whole season, then covered with compost again and then it all starts all over again.
We were talking about it all this morning as I was trying to plow through another Christian self help book (oh that sounds like a contradiction in terms - surly it is God how is meant to help us. Hey ho!),this time on finances. I must admit I think the guy who wrote it may have some issues.
But as with so many of these Christian inner healing books there is a lot about digging and weeding out things. Now I have done some inner healing stuff and know I have gained a lot from it but I do wonder if at times we dig too much.
I know with my garden if i put this manure over a huge thistle or nettles then they will poke through and I will have to pull them up first. In fact my friend has been working hard pulling things up, old plants, weeds, etc before she puts the manure down. I'm putting mine on grass so no big deal there.
But yes we do need to pull out the big weeds in our lives. But once we have covered ourselves with Jesus, the blood of Jesus, the Cross, and waited for a season then we can be ready to be planted and to produce a crop of 30, 60 even a 100 fold. But if we keep on digging once we have put Jesus on we rake up things that actually just by being covered with Him could've been killed.
I also think so often we bring people to know Jesus and then expect them to start producing straight away but like this method maybe it would be good for us all to wait for a season to just be covered and then we would be so much more effective.
Also with this method even though it produces so much more than the digging/weeding method it cannot keep going forever. There has to come a point where it is left to just lie under the compost, under the covering of Jesus.
Interestingly in a lot of the readings I am doing on mystics, Celts and other great leaders, they very much saw there lives as a rhythm of resting with Jesus, going out and being productive, resting with Jesus. And this resting was not something fitted into their schedule it was a real time out.
I wonder why we are so afraid to just take time out and rest under Jesus? I wonder just how much more productive we could be?
So on Weds I get a big pile of cow manure which I have to put on the designated space and then cover it with cardboard. At some point I think i also need to put on some compost from the recycling centre and again cover with cardboard and put stones on said cardboard to hold it down. Then by the spring I can start planting. It turns out this method means that the weeds don't come through because actually weeds, or at least the seeds of weeds, are encouraged to grow by the whole process of digging. Occasional ones do pop up but one just pulls them out. And also this method can be planted continuously for a whole season, then covered with compost again and then it all starts all over again.
We were talking about it all this morning as I was trying to plow through another Christian self help book (oh that sounds like a contradiction in terms - surly it is God how is meant to help us. Hey ho!),this time on finances. I must admit I think the guy who wrote it may have some issues.
But as with so many of these Christian inner healing books there is a lot about digging and weeding out things. Now I have done some inner healing stuff and know I have gained a lot from it but I do wonder if at times we dig too much.
I know with my garden if i put this manure over a huge thistle or nettles then they will poke through and I will have to pull them up first. In fact my friend has been working hard pulling things up, old plants, weeds, etc before she puts the manure down. I'm putting mine on grass so no big deal there.
But yes we do need to pull out the big weeds in our lives. But once we have covered ourselves with Jesus, the blood of Jesus, the Cross, and waited for a season then we can be ready to be planted and to produce a crop of 30, 60 even a 100 fold. But if we keep on digging once we have put Jesus on we rake up things that actually just by being covered with Him could've been killed.
I also think so often we bring people to know Jesus and then expect them to start producing straight away but like this method maybe it would be good for us all to wait for a season to just be covered and then we would be so much more effective.
Also with this method even though it produces so much more than the digging/weeding method it cannot keep going forever. There has to come a point where it is left to just lie under the compost, under the covering of Jesus.
Interestingly in a lot of the readings I am doing on mystics, Celts and other great leaders, they very much saw there lives as a rhythm of resting with Jesus, going out and being productive, resting with Jesus. And this resting was not something fitted into their schedule it was a real time out.
I wonder why we are so afraid to just take time out and rest under Jesus? I wonder just how much more productive we could be?
Saturday, 7 November 2009
Mothering teenagers!!
I am having those dilemmas that I am caring parents have had over the years - how much to get go, how much to trust, how much of one's intuition does one run with and how much does one give to God. And actually the trust thing for me comes down to how much do I trust God with my children, who really are not children any more but becoming young adults who I want to release into the world just right. And also how do I put all my concerns into a positive blog. Not that one should be blindly positive but I do know that God cares for Ben and Tabi even more than I do. And I also know that some of my anxieties are that I am having to let go of them, having to find something that is not them to fill my life. For me being a single parent has brought me to a place with my 2 where I have probably been overly protective and also where we have been very close. I think we are still very close now but at times I feel sad that they have other people they are close to - which I also know is right and proper.
But this on Brian Heasley's (Ibizia) blog has really helped. It from a retreat he was on and the quote is by Henri Nouwen.
"Sometimes we have to "step over" our anger, our jealousy, or our feelings of rejection and move on. The temptation is to get stuck in our negative emotions, poking around in them as if we belong there. Then we become the "offended one", the "forgotten one", or the "discarded one". Yes, we can get attached to these negative identities and even take morbid pleasure in them. It might be good to have a look at these dark feelings and explore where they come from, but there comes a moment to step over them, leave them behind and travel on."
And I know it means more, much more, than coping with empty nest syndrome and trusting God with our children, but for me it is that whole thing of poking around with negative emotiosn that can be so tempting, to go into a place that is so unhealthy - either from imaging what they could be up to or from letting feelings of life not being as I envisioned, stuff like that. I need to give this all to God and let Him deal with it and not go poking around in it all.
And there will come a moment when they will travel on to wherever life has planned for them and my holding on to them will be no good for them or me.
and also what I like is that God can stick this in to someone else's life and it speaks to me so much, even if in a totally different way to what it was intend to!
But this on Brian Heasley's (Ibizia) blog has really helped. It from a retreat he was on and the quote is by Henri Nouwen.
"Sometimes we have to "step over" our anger, our jealousy, or our feelings of rejection and move on. The temptation is to get stuck in our negative emotions, poking around in them as if we belong there. Then we become the "offended one", the "forgotten one", or the "discarded one". Yes, we can get attached to these negative identities and even take morbid pleasure in them. It might be good to have a look at these dark feelings and explore where they come from, but there comes a moment to step over them, leave them behind and travel on."
And I know it means more, much more, than coping with empty nest syndrome and trusting God with our children, but for me it is that whole thing of poking around with negative emotiosn that can be so tempting, to go into a place that is so unhealthy - either from imaging what they could be up to or from letting feelings of life not being as I envisioned, stuff like that. I need to give this all to God and let Him deal with it and not go poking around in it all.
And there will come a moment when they will travel on to wherever life has planned for them and my holding on to them will be no good for them or me.
and also what I like is that God can stick this in to someone else's life and it speaks to me so much, even if in a totally different way to what it was intend to!
Thursday, 5 November 2009
Writing in the Sand by Thomas Moore
After a bit of facetious blog about John Eldridge's book yesterday which in places is very good about listening to God in fact, I have started an amazing book - Writing in the Sand by Thomas Moore, which is much more on my wavelength.
I am not sure what translation of the Bible this comes from but for me it sums up how I feel about my walk with Jesus -
From Matthew 10:7-8 "As you walk around let people know that the kingdom of heaven has come. Take care of the sick, waken the lifeless, get to the root of suffering and banish the demonic"
To me that is it in a nutshell and makes me know too that I can do this. Not everyone we pray for gets healed, but everyone we know who is sick needs someone to care for them. My heart really is to encourage and waken people to their dreams and to see them just live life to the full. Everyone I seem to know who is looking at the world keeps wanting to know what the root of suffering is and how we can deal with it - very much this is what I see in my daughter as she works towards her dream of being a human rights lawyer. In fact I can even see it in my son wanting to join the army. I truly can see there a desire to want to do something in his world and for now this is the only way he can see it.
Moore talks about how following Jesus isn't about trying to figure out what is right and wrong, good and evil, but of living life to the full. As Jesus said "I come to give life and life to abundance", and this is not in a hedonistic way. If we are living life to the full then we will be doing all the above and actually not doing things that are evil or bad. Ok so if we go down the hedonistic route then of course there is that danger of doing harmful, evil, wrong things but that is not what Moore means, what Jesus meant.
We have a great poem from Marianne Williamson in our bathroom that says about how if we life to our potential we actually encourage others to too. So if we could life the Jesus life to the full then that would just encourage others to want to follow Him too.
Today I think I understand what Francis of Assisi meant when he said "evangelize at all times and if necessary use words". But now I have to walk this out!
I am not sure what translation of the Bible this comes from but for me it sums up how I feel about my walk with Jesus -
From Matthew 10:7-8 "As you walk around let people know that the kingdom of heaven has come. Take care of the sick, waken the lifeless, get to the root of suffering and banish the demonic"
To me that is it in a nutshell and makes me know too that I can do this. Not everyone we pray for gets healed, but everyone we know who is sick needs someone to care for them. My heart really is to encourage and waken people to their dreams and to see them just live life to the full. Everyone I seem to know who is looking at the world keeps wanting to know what the root of suffering is and how we can deal with it - very much this is what I see in my daughter as she works towards her dream of being a human rights lawyer. In fact I can even see it in my son wanting to join the army. I truly can see there a desire to want to do something in his world and for now this is the only way he can see it.
Moore talks about how following Jesus isn't about trying to figure out what is right and wrong, good and evil, but of living life to the full. As Jesus said "I come to give life and life to abundance", and this is not in a hedonistic way. If we are living life to the full then we will be doing all the above and actually not doing things that are evil or bad. Ok so if we go down the hedonistic route then of course there is that danger of doing harmful, evil, wrong things but that is not what Moore means, what Jesus meant.
We have a great poem from Marianne Williamson in our bathroom that says about how if we life to our potential we actually encourage others to too. So if we could life the Jesus life to the full then that would just encourage others to want to follow Him too.
Today I think I understand what Francis of Assisi meant when he said "evangelize at all times and if necessary use words". But now I have to walk this out!
Wednesday, 4 November 2009
Book Suggestions!!
Oh the perfect morning! Everyone is out and I have had an hour eating breakfast and catching up on reading blogs. Brilliant! I love the tranquility of an empty house and, now with Ian working from home, I don't get it very often. Before he worked from home of course I was home schooling and so didn't get that space either. So this is like a little gift for me.
I also wonder how many people have been in this place? I have started to get to that age when one wakes in the night, some of it is because someone is moving around, or because I am thinking of things, but often it is just because. Anyway over the last few days I have been reading John Eldridge's Walking With God, which I borrowed from a friend who can only get to page 85 every time. Anyway I plugged on with it.
He is very into spiritual warfare and of how we must keep looking to what is going on in our lives and be prepared to take on those evil spirits, and that actually waking in the night is not just one of those things, or part of getting old, but is a demonic attack.
So there am I led away in the night and this thought that this is demonic comes to me. Oh yes he also says that we let these things in (something I do understand from having done spiritual warfare) and so we have to look for the opening in ourselves and also look to see what has been allowed into the house. Well here is me with 2 teenagers who go off out into the world and to be honest at the moment I am not sure how deep their walk with God is and how much "care" they take of what they bring home. And actually a husband who is more into working than looking for demons! So I am led awake trying to work out what has come into the house, and coming up with loads and loads and loads of things, of feeling condemned, of wondering where to start - a bit like when you've let the housework go on too long and it all needs doing at once - and fussing and panicking and trying to remember what was said in the book. Oh a mess!
Eventually I just gave the whole lot to God and let Him deal with it. Not quite what the book said, but very much the only way to get a good night's sleep.
I just wonder though how often the enemy isn't actually attacking us but is using things that say he could be to attack us. Oh my was the thing that I "let into the house" actually John Eldridge's book :)
I also wonder how many people have been in this place? I have started to get to that age when one wakes in the night, some of it is because someone is moving around, or because I am thinking of things, but often it is just because. Anyway over the last few days I have been reading John Eldridge's Walking With God, which I borrowed from a friend who can only get to page 85 every time. Anyway I plugged on with it.
He is very into spiritual warfare and of how we must keep looking to what is going on in our lives and be prepared to take on those evil spirits, and that actually waking in the night is not just one of those things, or part of getting old, but is a demonic attack.
So there am I led away in the night and this thought that this is demonic comes to me. Oh yes he also says that we let these things in (something I do understand from having done spiritual warfare) and so we have to look for the opening in ourselves and also look to see what has been allowed into the house. Well here is me with 2 teenagers who go off out into the world and to be honest at the moment I am not sure how deep their walk with God is and how much "care" they take of what they bring home. And actually a husband who is more into working than looking for demons! So I am led awake trying to work out what has come into the house, and coming up with loads and loads and loads of things, of feeling condemned, of wondering where to start - a bit like when you've let the housework go on too long and it all needs doing at once - and fussing and panicking and trying to remember what was said in the book. Oh a mess!
Eventually I just gave the whole lot to God and let Him deal with it. Not quite what the book said, but very much the only way to get a good night's sleep.
I just wonder though how often the enemy isn't actually attacking us but is using things that say he could be to attack us. Oh my was the thing that I "let into the house" actually John Eldridge's book :)
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